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Like so many unforeseen challenges and so many little mistakes and everyone has been on my ass about every little thing. Bout to have a breakdown of this doesn’t let up

Literally cannot catch a break this week

Tao Linnnnnnnn

disclaimer i am not a christian and this is not a christian post but It’s so funny how christians are like don’t use the lords name in vain but it’s actually so interesting how all of our common exclamations are spiritually/religiously based like “holy shit”, “jesus christ” “oh my god/oh lord” and it’s like…that’s not invoking the name in vain… that’s exactly when someone needs god/spiritual assistance. when some shit is going down. when i say oh my god, even about something petty it’s like, an acknowledgment of god and that god is everywhere in everything, including this thing i’m exclaiming about. it’s not “in vain” wtf! language is so wild. anyway i love restructuring my old religious conditioning into something new and beautiful that *actually makes sense* and im going to keep doing that forever

Realtors are mean

nostalgia only tethers me to the past

I need more friends with poetic hearts that desire to bare their souls

who up yearning for love

Lol I can’t really describe them and now that I’ve had another sleep I’ve forgotten them

what were your dreams weird dream person

Yeah I feel the dreams being a sort of harbinger or primer for the next day thing lately

Ooo that’s a good dream

omg yes! i had a dream that it was a full moon but the moon was giant and filled the whole sky

So many weird dreams last night that have continued coming back to me throughout the day

advice from my therapist when i was having a similar problem: you are in control of your thoughts and you can choose which ones to entertain. That’s not to say the feelings completely go away but you can train your thought patterns to be prone to another direction.

every day lately i either wish that i could die or im glad that i didn’t. i wish i didn’t think about it so much either way. i wish i could just live.

🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕

go look at the moon

The energy shifted today really abruptly around 2:30pm imo. Somethins up

i want everyone to not talk to me for like a week and then i’ll be fine

Scorpio Full Moon!!! lots of plutonian energy today. mercury going direct in two days!

Woof meow

wherever i am i bring thirty six thousand souls with me hidden in my skin, in the outline of my shadow They hold me, make up my bones they hear me, and fill my lungs.

i hope i die again

who up solipsizing they pingus

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I want to be considered as if i’m an actual human being with feelings. tired of loving and trusting people who treat me like a machine, or a mirror, or someone to blame. I won’t have it anymore.

something awkward this way comes

The sage didn’t work

Are we ok? I’m not ok

Why is everyone so awkward rn

coffee hours are amazing

5. Life is a constant cycle between plateaus and mountains. Do not mistake the plateau for a rut. Instead, lay on the flat, even ground and enjoy the temporary open space to dream. The next mountain that will demand your attention is always right around the corner anyways. You are destined to miss the reflective freedom found on the plateau when you're called to the mountain, and you're bound to miss the active sense of self found on the mountain when you're on the plateau. But, if you remain conscious of this cycle, you can enjoy the important offerings found in each terrain exactly at the time of their arrival.

🙂‍↔️

ok wait nothing is bad as i was making it out to be

i saw a woman with her eyes closed and peaceful with her head on her lovers back on the back of his moped she and her love we’re so beautiful it brought me to tears

Happy 4/20 y’all!!!

4. You're always allowed to change your mind.

you are the arbiter of all that you believe and how you internally respond to external threats that are out of your control. The situation controls you because you let it. Until you turn the sail towards the wind, you will be whipped around on the sea until you are a broken mess.

3. If you find yourself stuck on a thought, consider that you may not have given this thought a clear destination. Do you wish to not have the thought? Do you wish to change the thought? If you don't know where you want to go - choose a place you would like to rest for a while until you do. Choice creates movement, and chosen destination helps guide us out of loops or stagnation.

I’ve had so many things go wrong and I was like are we in retrograde??? But I hadn’t heard anything about us being in retrograde bc ppl have only been talking about eclipse season. But the two TOGETHER??? Damn

yeah it’s fucked up. literally one day ago i was feeling completely different than i do today and it’s all about miscommunication and mixed messages it SUUUUUCCCCKKKSSS

Omg wait Mercury has been in retrograde ???? Makes so much more sense why shit is the way it is

2. Have sympathy for those who carry jealousy or resentment, but always keep your distance. An ill emotion with a target will always manifest tangibly somehow, even on accident.

omg are u making omelets

Grocery: Arugula Banana Pb Peppers? Mush Eggs Feta Red onion Yellow cheese? Meat? Pickled something? Cauliflower Quinoa Rice paper Avo? Carrots? Bubbly

I’m so ready to be done with it

Does anyone know when eclipse season is over? I can’t find the dates anywhere

Sub shop slaps

Knight of Swords - The Knight of Swords is one of the most intense energies in the tarot. He is determined and not afraid of a challenge. The suit of swords is piercing (pun intended) in matters of the mind and communication. If you are in the energy of this suit, it is not an energy that concerns itself with the feelings of others. You may be feeling the need to balance the apathy you feel towards those around you and take other’s best interests as a part of your own interests, or alternatively you may need cut ties with others’ concerns and give sharp focus to your own ventures. This energy can easily be thrown out of balance because of its intense nature. Be sure you are tempering intensity with grounded energy, but be aware of when you have grown apathetic. Sometimes a decisive moment of action is what is needed.

1. One day, you will be so heartbroken and convince yourself that you just lost the best love you ever had. What you don't know yet, is that your definitions of "love" and "best" will shift and expand beyond your recognition. Maybe that harsh verdict is true for your current self. But your future self? No way.

severe trust issues

eclipse season hitting this group hard it seems

i love my friends

I am not your pawn

Do you really see me

still filled with hate

Ace of Cups - Aces are always beginnings, they represent the number 1. Cups are the suit of emotion. A new feeling is coming into your awareness today. This beginning has powerful potential to change the way you see yourself and the world. This could be something in your external world like a new connection or something more internal like unraveling emotional knots and discovering new ways to allow emotions to flow. Either way, with the right focus and an ample amount of openness, the Ace of Cups is an excellent omen for a fresh start.

nothing is worse than being rejected after being vulnerable

What if the art police are the people saying pingus?

pingus

i am filled with hate

uh oh the art police are here everybody go back to saying pingus

is solipsistic just another word for writing poetry

I think I’m going to make french toast this morning

Ulyeeeahhh we’re getting a bit solipsistic in here lately guys.

Watching the weasel take off before sunset To get ready for bed On lake Taneycomo

I open all the windows to the night air. it brings me sweet memories. somewhere a bird sings which wakes the cat, who starts pacing. A broken connection settles on the air, like static in the radio. I didn’t know it was still there. I didn’t know ghosts existed, but I heard a whisper clearly.

the lake is choppy today it brings the wind in from a distant storm it brings the smell of rain

ugh

Took a bath. No longer ugh

Ugh

i’m sure you’re bangin’, anon

me too. and i’m having weird feelings about my body. i don’t believe anyone when they tell me im beautiful. i feel like my friends are always having fun flirtations with strangers and im just there and not being looked at. i keep trying to convince myself im hot but i dont see it and i dont see anybody else seeing it

i want to feel desired so badly

the river is blue and always this beautiful glinting in the sun whether or not anyone is around to see it

i want someone to call me pretty

i would also like to go camping in arkansas with a pretty girl

it was beeeeaaaauuuuutifullll. the water was so blue. very crowded tho which was actually fine for our vibe this weekend

Oh wait I camped there once!

Yay!

we survived

Meow

Pingus :D

pingus to my left… josh to my right… yea, tonight about to be a movie…

For how long…

me and zaida are going camping at the ozark campground near harrison arkansas. in case we die or go missing

put your towels in the washer. crushes are devastating i usually deal with my fear of them by getting crushes on people with whom it will never happen LOL

And by 12 I mean 13 fuck

That’s my score on today (April 12th’s) daily challenge.

I got a score of 3071 on today's Chronophoto: 4/13/2024 Round 1: 924 Round 2: 396 Round 3: 849 Round 4: 849 Round 5: 53 Guys go play this game chronophoto and share your score!!! It’s like geoguessr but you guess what year each photo was taken in. This was my first time playing an I think I’m finna play every day. Hehe. #notanad Chronophoto.app

Someone remind me to put my goddamn towels that are in the washer currently into the dryer when I wake in the morning if I do

SILVER DOLLAR CITY

Fish religion.

I’m afraid of having crushes because I feel I’ll be too vulnerable and take it too seriously or whatever but it’s fucked because I love and feel love and romance and zesty and all of these things but it’s the thing I am afraid of most. Outside of pure and utter annihilation and being unwritten from the memory of those I hold dear. Fish religion is easier to tackle.

i’m thinking about fish religion. I bet they have crazy myths. What do u think they think the surface of the water is! it’s the fucking tangible barrier between this life and the next. it’s the afterlife. omg

we are so young at heart and living is an art to be good at - dave bixby

too sick to write poems too well to die

I’m awake; I am in the world- I expect no further assurance.